Bullet in Snow: Childhood Shootout
Key Points
- As a 12‑year‑old fascinated by abandoned burned‑out sports cars, the narrator sneaks onto a track where a distant pickup truck approaches before a series of gunshots erupts.
- The narrator is hit in the leg by a .22 caliber bullet, describing the wound as a warm “hot pocket” that quickly turns into a painful puncture, leaving the bullet lodged rather than exiting.
- In the chaos, the narrator’s friends panic, flee over a fence, and abandon him while he struggles to stay upright despite the sudden loss of feeling and intense adrenaline.
- He eventually manages to hop over the fence, rides his bike to a hospital for treatment, and vows revenge, though the promised retaliation never materializes.
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# Bullet in Snow: Childhood Shootout **Source:** [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0nfVjdZlvWQ](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0nfVjdZlvWQ) **Duration:** 00:21:48 ## Summary - As a 12‑year‑old fascinated by abandoned burned‑out sports cars, the narrator sneaks onto a track where a distant pickup truck approaches before a series of gunshots erupts. - The narrator is hit in the leg by a .22 caliber bullet, describing the wound as a warm “hot pocket” that quickly turns into a painful puncture, leaving the bullet lodged rather than exiting. - In the chaos, the narrator’s friends panic, flee over a fence, and abandon him while he struggles to stay upright despite the sudden loss of feeling and intense adrenaline. - He eventually manages to hop over the fence, rides his bike to a hospital for treatment, and vows revenge, though the promised retaliation never materializes. ## Sections - [00:00:00](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0nfVjdZlvWQ&t=0s) **Childhood Gunfire Near Burned Cars** - A 12‑year‑old narrates a 1991 incident wandering among abandoned, burned sports cars, hearing gunshots, fleeing a nearby pickup truck, and describing the bullet wound on his leg as feeling like a “hot pocket.” ## Full Transcript
thank you
1991 it's like Snowy out there used to
be a bunch of burned up
sports cars out here and things like
that and so me as a 12 year old was just
obsessed with that and so I decided to
ride down the tracks this way so we see
a pickup truck in the distance and it
come comes closer and we're just like ah
I don't know who this is you know we're
probably we're not supposed to be back
here anyway and then all of a sudden pop
pop we hear these pops and so I start
running that way my group of friends
start running that way and you keep
hearing these pops where were you
exactly when the shots rung out do you
know like right a little bit right over
here how far away is the truck 35 like
probably half of a block we ran this way
and
uh it this is a lot more treacherous at
the time there's like a lot these plants
weren't quite as high there's a lot of
garbage everywhere you're constantly
running where are the cars exactly all
over the place like it almost seemed
like people would like burn up a car and
leave it here as an insurance scam or
something the scar is like a slice and
then you could see the actual Bullet
Hole so like slice the skin a little bit
and then win in it was a 22 felt like a
Hot Pocket was just on my on my leg and
was it because hot pockets are somewhat
large compared to a bullet hole did it
really like did the heat like cover that
much of your leg Yeah Yeah it literally
felt like my leg was just warm and I was
just running and you know and this is
like one of those things where like this
probably took a total of 10 seconds but
like in my head it's like this 10 minute
long like thing where I'm like my leg is
starting to get warm actually it's
uncomfortably warm wow it's hot now oh
it feels like a cigar is poking into my
leg and by the time I reached in it just
went perfectly through the hole in like
my snow pants and into the Bullet Hole
like my finger just went right in there
and then you know it took a minute to
realize what was happening like I was
like I have a bullet in my leg and then
immediately my body just gives out I
fall on the ground you scream into the
snow what do your friends do they're
just won't Escape gone they go over that
fence the the bikes are on the opposite
side of the fence at the time I was I
was upset that they had left but I
completely understand when children run
away from another child that had just
been shot and then I managed to hop over
the fence in like you know in a shaking
panic and then by the time I got on my
bike I was angry the adrenaline gland
just kicked in I didn't feel anything I
don't think I felt anything I kind of
didn't care as much I was just like ah
I'm going to go to the hospital I'm
gonna get this sewn up and then I'm
going to get them back you know which
never happened but the bullet was in
there so it wasn't through and through
yeah they pulled the vote out
a few weeks ago a story dominated my
news feed researchers at University of
Chicago have used AI to repeatedly and
reliably predict crime with a 90
accuracy within a range of about a
thousand feet
now I know that headlines like this
typically contain hyperbole but this
paper actually checks out I felt like my
particular journey and perspective might
be good at helping my viewers make sense
of all this or so I hoped
to a lot of people AI prediction seems
pretty scary but it's virtually
everywhere and chances are that if you
woke up tomorrow and it was gone you'd
probably be annoyed by the inconvenience
for example some of you might pick up
your phone and open up your app menu
around dinner time and notice that Uber
Eats is in your recommended apps smart
thermostats can look at weather data and
learn from our behaviors and predict
what temperatures will make us
comfortable throughout the day while
increasing Energy Efficiency and oddly
nobody seems creeped out that Google
literally finishes our sentences when we
search something what might surprise you
is that AI crime prediction is actually
nothing new in fact it's been pretty
problematic in the past AI bias is not
all that different than human bias as
I'm sure you already know in a lot of
cities lower income areas are often
coupled with higher crime rates and if
an algorithm tells a police officer to
go to a specific neighborhood with a
heightened expectation of finding crime
guess what happens they find crime but
they find crime disproportionately
someone might be abusing their spouse in
public in a rich name neighborhood while
all the police are spending their time
finding people for broken tail lights in
a poor neighborhood it's just bias
policing with a much higher price tag
what makes this particular algorithm
different is that it attempts to avoid
this bias by creating a model with much
smaller tiles that can avoid traditional
or political boundaries which might make
things a bit less generalized and
therefore less prone to bias full
transparency I'm not yet sold on it
which is why I wanted to meet some of
the algorithms Architects to try and
understand it better
foreign
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[ __ ] I hope the jack-booted thugs to
which you're providing this crime
forecast AI never turn it on anyone you
hold dear you're quite simply a vile
oppression-enabling worm this person has
good grammar let's put it that way for
what for like the lunacy of what they're
saying it is it's kind of a haiku of
vileness
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in a perfect world like where would this
end up Prime data is kind of complicated
because you you're never measuring the
crime itself it's like through polish uh
response you're measuring that reported
crime so there's always that factor that
you're not really looking at actual
crime all these things like people
having the confidence of people and
calling the authorities all that factors
in so ideally maybe we can go to words
where we can actually get and handle of
what the actual Dynamics is and help
people optimize what kind of
interventions decisions needs to be
taken to reduce crime the ultimate way
to predict a crime is to just talk to
people who might commit those crimes are
you angry are you in a gang are you are
do you have some sort of
reason to commit this crime do you have
access to a weapon do you have a weapon
you know things like that to be absurd
you know the ultimate way to predict
crime is to produce crime yeah um which
is which is you know like uh to commit
crime and I think what's interesting
about that and non-trivial is this has
been uh you know one aspect of criticism
about crime enforcement you know in
general like we can make crime very
predictable by squeezing it into certain
parts of the city sure to certain
sub-populations into certain regions and
they're not entirely wrong as we show
basically from our analysis so no
criminal records essentially it's all
really public data all the cities that
we have looked at it's all public data
when I look at this whole this whole
situation the salesman is the problem
are you worried is there is there any
possibility that for-profit company
would try to sell this to a community
and then you would have you know
somebody a cop seeing it as probable
cause we were using this to basically
identify biased enforcement and this
substantial biased enforcement I mean
this is you know how you know I'm not
saying how it is that they allocate how
they're thinking about allocating police
officers but systematically when crime
goes up then they draw them to high
resource areas you know and so I think
our our hope you know how is it this
could be used in many ways it could be
used but our hope is that
um we can basically build
um or begin to build a base where people
who are you know citizens or surveilling
I mean this you know public data
resources allow us to surveil the
surveillance you know in ways that allow
us to hold them accountable in ways that
were previously impossible if you had
one message for just a general media
writer who wants the click bait of uh 90
crime prediction Minority Report Etc
what would you tell what do you want to
so recently I mean uh maybe in the last
couple of weeks or two or three weeks a
few articles have come out which are
kind of
framing this as some kind of conspiracy
theory like they are pushing this so
that they can they can get more control
and they're rolling this out I mean who
are they
it's us oh my gosh the day you're the
man no no there is no conspiracy going
on I mean does the academic world
doesn't work like that even the funding
World in general doesn't work like that
uh yeah there are concerns of this kind
of Predictive Technologies we have to be
aware of being used incorrectly or
wrongly and that's that's a measurement
concern but getting off the rails and
kind of going into this conspiracy how
are people reading our minds the
University of Chicago is ironically a
15-minute drive from some of the
neighborhoods suffering the worst from
violent crime and just south of
Englewood less than three miles from
where I was shot is Saint Sabina a
Catholic parish led by Pastor Michael
Flagger and Michael is not at all what
you would expect from a Catholic priest
foreign
we don't take cars Away by putting
titles on them why can't we do that with
guns and every gun in America so if
somebody who's buying 200 guns selling
them on the streets if they can't
transfer those titles and they're going
to be held responsible for the guns that
they sell
service growing up was in Latin so it
was like being always nice
I reached out to pastor flager and he
put me in touch with purpose over pain a
non-profit founded by a group of parents
who lost their children to gun violence
they predict violent crime in their own
way they talk to people they talk to
gang members and find out what they're
angry about they find out if they have
access to Firearms they do their best to
offer help to people in need whether it
be crisis counseling or access to Mental
Health Care their organization is a role
model of what effective community
policing should be you know they get
paid to do different researches on on
our community
and uh then they always come in and be
like we'll give you 50 of this and that
we never hear the outcome but but then I
say I'm you know for my young people my
young kids I'm not letting them do it
anymore because not for like they
exhibit you know so and then you know so
I I don't know I just I just I you know
it's a little frustrating with that yeah
people just researching just research
then you go these these events and
that's how you see is numbers but we
seeing when we talk to people we seeing
people like our kids that's buried in
the ground so I'm like I don't need a
number yeah I need some type of plan and
I'm not knocking anything we need
something done to to make this stop but
um you can't just keep giving me data I
mean you gotta you got to show me some
action we down on the grounds we working
every day we're in and out these
communities
um doing a lot and and we're on the
grounds working so yeah and people in
these communities don't want to hear
numbers they want to see action since I
moved to Georgia one thing that I
consistently hear is people saying oh
well isn't it funny that Chicago has the
strictest gun laws yet has the highest
you know and my thinking tomorrow I'm
going to go across the border and try
and buy a gun in Indiana to see how hard
it is how do you think that's going to
go it's going to go easy
um not only that you don't even have to
go to Indiana you can go to outside of
Chicago just to Riverdale really so
Riverdale to checks we have strict laws
in the city of Chicago but you can go a
couple blocks over and you can get the
guns one gun Bill we asked for was one
gun a month
um
that wasn't even that was a common sense
why would you need 12 I need 12 guns
even from a collector right so then if
my household me and my husband want to
buy one that's 24 guns that's two guns a
month it's illegal guns that's flooding
our community so you have more guns than
you have books people say well illegal
guns you know that has nothing to do
with us because we own legal guns and
it's like well they were all legal at
one point it's not like people are
building guns in their garages if you
had the power to to make this decision
would you rather see an increased or
decreased police presence
decrease yeah to some of my viewers
there's narrative missing here I imagine
a lot of people don't understand the
logic of Crime Victims wishing they'd
have less police that's because most
statistics about the effectiveness of
policing come from police in fact the
most broad independent study on this
will tell you that it takes an average
of 17 full-time police officers to
reduce the average City's homicide rate
by one a tiny fraction of that money can
save more lives by simply increasing the
capacity of a shelter or funding a
rehabilitation program if you don't feel
like reading exhaustive sociology
studies then you could just use common
sense if police spending directly
decreased crime then America would be
the safest country in the world not a
spectacle of out of control gun violence
a great example of why these
neighborhoods are at odds with police
can be exhibited in the first
documentary style YouTube video I ever
made long before I started this
particular Channel it was initially a
video to help a small charity on my
block raise money so they could continue
giving children something to do and keep
them away from gangs and off the streets
that evening while editing the video the
Chicago Police broke into their building
and stole all of the money that they had
raised on their street sale oh oh I know
this sounds [ __ ] insane but luckily I
was able to leave my camera recording
long enough so that the cops could
incriminate themselves
turn this thing off man
okay I'm leaving not that it made any
difference or was even out of the
ordinary but now you might understand
why a lot of people in South Chicago
want less police it occurred to me that
it's probably very easy to blame a
disconnect between researchers and
victims on the researchers because of
their privilege but it's an important
reminder that shanu and James are not
Community organizers they're not paid to
reduce gun violence they're scientists
who are excellent at Gathering and
finding new purposes and data and one of
their data sets happens to be violent
crime and it appears like they're
trailblazing and leading this area of
Technology they've created an incredibly
scalable tool it's just not up to them
how it's used the researchers
unilaterally want this to be open data
and Pamela repeatedly mentioned that her
community is exhaustively part of other
types of sociological research but none
of the researchers ever shared their
data with those equipped to make use of
it that's difficult to hear and also not
surprising reducing people to numbers
that become packaged as intellectual
property is incred incredibly
dehumanizing and it's unfortunately how
a lot of psychological sociological and
economic research exists but again
literally every single person in this
video wants this research to end up as
open data it's still unclear to me how
one can make that happen though another
thing that was unclear to me was
Indiana's gun laws some sources said
that I could buy anything that I wanted
others said that I couldn't buy a
handgun living out of state I decided to
just stay a little bit longer and find
out
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wow we
all right so quick rundown of what I did
back there I picked out like the
cheapest handgun that they had and then
passed a background check using my
passport card not my driver's license so
it didn't have my address on it but I
assumed that they were able to verify
that through the background check
because I did have to enter my address
on the computer when doing the
background check but I really don't want
a handgun and I don't want to pay money
to put another one on the streets so I
changed my mind and I looked at the
assault rifles I asked if there was a
MAG limit there is not so I could have
gotten a nice semi-automatic assault
rifle with a scope and a laser and an
extended mag with absolutely no
restrictions I could have showed them an
Illinois driver's license saying that I
live just down the road on the south
side of Chicago and they would have sold
me that assault rifle with the extended
mag so I chose a pretty classic looking
Cowboy rifle that shoots the same
caliber bullet that entered my leg when
I was 12 years old
it's a nice ending right with open data
being such a driving narrative here the
last time Chicago published a gun Trace
report was 2017 and sure enough even
then the exact Cabela's I visited was
directly supplying guns used in violent
crimes in Chicago not that I needed a
report to tell me this since half of the
cars in the parking lot had Illinois
plates in fact in the very brief time I
was there to buy a gun I saw people
video chatting with their phone to
select a handgun before making the
purchase Cabela's has actually been sued
for their lack of vigilance regarding
the few existing gun laws they do have
to follow so you'd think at the very
least they'd have a no literally using
FaceTime to be a surrogate for someone
who can't own a gun policy but hey you
would also think that a gun a month per
individual would be a completely
acceptable limit you'd think that
magazine sizes mirroring what our Armed
Forces typically use would be a
no-brainer but no instead you have
irrefutable data showing that just a
dozen stores in the Chicagoland area are
supplying Chicago with thousands upon
thousands of illegally obtained guns in
the last decade there have been over 12
000 crime guns recovered in Chicago in
2021 alone so there's actually an
incredibly simple solution to this
horrific problem it's just that nobody
who has the power to enact it gives a
[ __ ] I say this because last year more
children were victims of gun violence in
Chicago then died of covid in all of
America in fact as an example of proving
how little of a [ __ ] is given I tried to
find out how many children were shot in
Chicago in the period of time that Gabby
Patito and Brian laundry were dominating
the media last year the number of
children murdered by guns in Chicago in
that brief two-month period
23
the total number of gun deaths in
Chicago last year in 2021 is
854. there are a lot of complex problems
in Chicago but the most obvious and
glaring one is that children are heavily
armed in killing one another to the
point where we are reducing them to a
constantly growing number of dead bodies
and we know exactly where their guns are
coming from and we know exactly who is
profiting from it the puzzle has been
solved decades ago so you tell me what
the [ __ ] is the point of broadly
predicting crime when nobody in our
federal government will do anything to
stop it
well as depressing as it is to have a
solution that we have to avoid because
some politicians require the votes of
irresponsible gun owners
there might be something we could do so
let's just say this video inspires
somebody who can pull some strings in
the University of Chicago gets that
crime prediction algorithm running again
and maybe even tweaks it to have more
localized clusters and instead of trying
to get law enforcement to pay attention
we could give this stream of data to
Michael Flagger or purpose over pain as
they can look at one of these squares
and likely know what gang or even
individuals are there after all they're
already out there on the street doing
this and a heat map might be able to
just provide them with a hint to where
they could better provide de-escalation
services and if that worked even just a
little bit you would be creating hard
evidence that tax dollars can go much
farther working with communities than
they can by simply hiring more police so
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